VINAYANA'S WORLD

*Online* He: Hiiii He: please talk to me. He: I am sorry that I went away. She: why did you?? He: I needed time to think.. She: think about what?? He: Think about us.. She: so.. there's a 'us' now... He: yeah.. don't doubt that.. She: you know about this problem and you want to stay with me??~ He: I accept you as you are... That is what love is... She: I don't believe you... He: believe me... She: but with my problem.... He: It doesn't matter... She: you don't know, what Schizophrenia is!! He: I know.. I have researched it well.. She: researching and living is two different things... He: I know but I want to live it with you.. no matter what!! She: Everybody says that.... He: But you can believe in me.. She: Are you sure? If I believe in someone.. I never leave them.. He: so, please believe in me... She: hehehehe.... She: so, do you really Love me!!!?? He: yesssss!!!,😍 She: so, do I... He: Meet you soon.. She: Meet y...

*Online* He: hiii He: Why are you mad at me? She: I am not mad at you, I am mad at myself. He: what do you mean?? She: I am not worth anybody's friendship, everybody think that I am crazy. He: why ???? She: you won't understand. He: try me.. atleast. He: I will understand everything to be with you... She: Hmmmm She: everything is wrong with me and my life.. He: why do you say that??? She: I have a disorder..... He: disorder?? What disorder? She: I can't handle myself.. He: why is it a disorder???😢 She: I hear people in my head and I can't Stop it ... He: Like... Schizophrenia.... O my God.... She: yeah, something like that.... She: and now you will forget everything you said.. He: I don't know what to say. She: I know but you said that you love me.. He: I think that was a mistake... She: now what.? After all this time. You will leave.. He: I don't know but I need time.. He: I am sorry... He: I need to go... He: good bye.....

He: Hiii He: how are you? He: I am sorry... *Seen* She: hi, I'm good.. He: I won't ask questions again. She: Okay. She: but I think you will understand what I am going through.. He:  I promise, I will.. She: I may look normal but there's a lot going on in my head. He: what do you mean? She: I don't know, it's like a consent chatter in my head, and I can't do nothing about it! This chatter, sometimes couldn't let me sleep.. He: ohh.. Is that why you don't talk to people around you..?? She: yeah.. they think that I am mad, but I'm quite normal in other ways!! He: Don't hear people, just hear your own heart. She: I hear a way lot of people.. you have no idea....but my heart don't listen to me, I guess. He. So. You love somebody??😘 She: You can say that... But nobody can handle me with this problem... He: and, why are you telling me.. all this~?😊 She: yeah, because you can tell everyone that I am mad. T...

* Days gone without a message* *Online* He: hiii.. He: where did you go? He: reply? Atleast.. *Seen* She: I told you to stay away.. He: but why?? What's the reason?😢 She: just understand that.. He: you can tell me, I am your friend. She: I have a Severe problem, it's type of mood swings.. He: huh? Mood swings?. That's the problem of every other girl.. She: but every other girl, doesn't close herself in a room, for many days, trying to harm herself.... He: OMG...  Why do you do that? Depression?? Did someone left you? Is that's why you said that if I know about you, I won't be your friend anymore?? She: it's none of your business dude!!! Just stay away.. He: but I want to know you.... She: you have already known me, enough.. don't come close.. you'll ruin yourself... He but . Maybe I have feelings for you... She: Keep your feelings to yourself .. and don't talk to me again..... *Offline* Stay tuned for the next epi...

+ A text message pops* He: Hi She: hello? He: how are you doing? She: do I know you? He: maybe... She: I don't really like this.. I am going to block you. He: you live near to my home.. across the street. I see you everyday. She: {opens up profile photo, tries to recognize} He: say something... She: hmmmm He: okay, bye, sorry. She: noo no no no He: what happened? She: I saw you... Few days ago... He: yeah She: I'm sorry, you know these days.. stupid stalkers.. He: yeah... He. I think you looked good with long haIrs..Why did you cut it off?~ She: Because india is a free country...🙄 He: oh sorry!! *Offline* *Offline* He: where are you? He: you gone? He: I'm sorry.. ^online* She. Hey He: hey He: where did you go? She: nothing He: tell me. She: if you know everything about me, then you would never talk me again.. He. What happened? She; just know that I can't lead a so called normal life, again. He: why?... What happened?? She...

Sea thrashing stones, Waves, Loud but soft, A boy so young, With camera, Captures the beauty, His emotions unknown, Reveals nothing But snapshots, Of,  A simple train, But, A fire in belly, Or some smiles, Playing in rain, His passion, Only pictures, Nothing less, Nothing more, He clicked nature, Her beauty, But one day, Fell in love With a lady, A dancer, She had her Own  art. And he had His own, Now his Inspiration, Became His love, His creation Became His love, Complexity Arose, From Rivers, Mountains And birds, He moved to, Her eyes, Her lips, Her portrait, By making Her life, His life, But, Somewhere, He was loosing , His imagination, Artist in him, Suffered,  Suffocated,  And Surrendered,  He lost himself,  In her love, And she too, Suffered with him, Her dance,  Looked torn, Her form looked,  Unhappy,  Is this love?  An artist Need freedom, Freedom But love,...

Tum yaad aaya na kro, Aao toh door jaya na kro, Waqt se ek dua h meri, Tum bas itna sataya na kro, Ho gyaa tha pyaar tumse, Jab tum humse baate krte the, Ho gyaa tha pyaar tumse, Jab tum humere liye ladte the, Ye mohabbat ki gali kesi h, Jaha janaa aasaan aur ana mushkil h, Ye mohabbat ki gali kesi h, Jaha mohabbat aasan pr nibhana muskil h.....

Today, I was just on my wheelchair and a couple of guys past by me. They did turn around with sympathetic faces, looking at my wheelchair. This episode kept me thinking do all the people with disabilities are seen as undesirable in the so called normal world. I was pondering over the same thought when I saw those guys looking at other girls. I know that sometimes guys stare can harm a woman in many ways. Nevertheless, here I talking about a general norm, not really talking about my own experience . Just to bring this one point in to your consciousness. People with disabilities are always as Child -like , who would always need a support for a lifetime. These prejudices refrain people from looking beyond disabilities. That is why I think that if a person with disabilities want to have a true romantic relationship, the person needs to understand that we might face some physical problems but if we both try to adapt with each other. We could become a healthy couple. I know that wheneve...

Dear heart, Stop falling for someone worthless, Dear heart, Stop beating fast on that photograph, Dear heart, You know that he doesn't belong with me, Dear heart, Stop looking for the clues that I don't see, Dear heart, You know everything but still beat each time, Dear heart, You really know that he doesn't seem to be mine, Dear heart, You know that you are just Free right now, Dear heart, Just concentrate on passion of poetry right now, If Dear heart listened to me this way, Everything would have changed, If dear heart listened to me this way, Everything would have changed....

Unn aati jaati lehero se, Humne bhi kuch seekha tha, Na thake chalte jaana, Humne bhi yahi se seekha tha, Ek hi taal se gaaate rehna, Unn leheron ne ye sangeet seekhaya tha, Ek umar bas chalte rehna, Un leheron ne khoob hum jeewan ka mehtav samjhaya tha, Unn hawaon me awaaz thi kaha, Phir bhi saaz sunaya tha, Unn leheron me rukjana kaha seekha tha, Phir bhi chattano se ladke ussne apna sangeet sunaya tha...

Today, as I was on an evening get- away, on my automatic wheelchair. I met a little girl in my society. She was both excited and worried to see me. As We took off a conversation, she started asking me some interesting general knowledge questions. With every correct answer, I gainrd respect in that little girl 's eyes. I thought alot after she left me to play with other kids. It came to my Mind, that having knowledge is a great gift. Today, every kid of my society wants to hangout with me. They really consider me as a bundle of joy. Hanging out with them make me happy. Even their parents wants them to hangout with me and learn something new everyday. I really wish that all the schools in Delhi should have inclusive education. Where students with disabilities and without disabilities should study and learn together. That is how our future generation can learn about Inclusion.

Wo lekhakika hi kya, Jiski kavita ki tareef na ho, Wo lekhakika hi kya, Jiski apni pehchan na ho, Wo lekhakika hi kya, Jisko salah na mile, Wo lekhakika hi kya, Jo apne Khayalo se na hile, Wo lekhakika hi kya, Jisko sirf  tareef hi mile, Wo lekhakika hi kya, Jo khudi se na lade, Aye duniya walo, Me saakoon ke liye likhti hu, Aye duniya walo, Me apne samman ke liye likhti hu, Likhti hu unn mudhdho pr jo humare liye zaroori h, Likhti hu me unn mudhdho pr jo Duniya ke liye zaroori h, Ek kalam se hi me toh duniya ko badalne nikli hu, Ek kalam se hi me toh insaaniyat badalne nikli hu...

It really easy to give up, there always comes a time in life, when you decide to give up. This happens to me last week, when I was preparing for my research paper presentation, last week. As you all must be knowing that I have a speech problem. Sometimes, new people can't even get what I am saying. Personally, I am very conscious of my speech and most of the time, I avoid speaking. This time, I really determine that I will give My 100 % for the paper presentation. I was really doubtful whether people would understand my speech or not. I am a kind of person, who if given the opportunity, I try and bring out my whole potential. At this conference I did the same, I didn't give up and spoke every word, fearlessly. That is why I Was able to connect with each and everyone in the conference hall. Never give up should be the moto of life..

We can't think And create art, An art is to be felt By all senses, Art can't be defined In words, It's a emotion to be felt, They say, Artist is art itself, One who create it, Leaves a mark, I am an art, Of someone's mind, I am an art, One of a kind, Lets take a white sheet, Cor it with thousand colours, Mixing one into the other, Until a new colour is formed, I'm an artist They say, This is all I can do, Life is in a rhyme, Or not, I believe this free verse I'd all mine..

Na sharab chahiye Na shabab chahiye Hume toh bas ek makam chahiye, Na khuda se gila krte h, Na ab tumse shikwa krte h, Par shayad ek tazoorbaa chahiye, Par shayad ek nazariya chahiye, Na ab mohabbat se koi umeed krte h, Na ab hum duaaon ki khareed krte h, Khudi ko bhi khudi me dhoondne ki fariyaad krte h, Aj hum bhi hum hi se milne ki ek aas rkhte h, Jao bata do.. duniya ko ki ek aurat ne kalam ko saathi baana liya, Jao bata do... Duniya ko ki ek aurat ne apna jahan basaa liya, Ae duniya walo hume na hi koi ehsaan aur na hi koi bheekh chahiye, Hum ladkiyo ko bas humara adhikar chahiye.... Hume Bas humara adhikar chahiye....

Ye shhor kya h, Ander ho toh mann ghabarrata hu, Ye shhor kya h, Bahar ho toh dil seham sa jaata h, Ye shhor kya h, Ye kaha se aata h, Ye kaha ko jaata h, Ye shhor kya h, Jab dil ho, Ye shhor sangeet bnn jaata h, Jab dil na ho, Sangeet bhi shhor ban jaata h, Ye shhor kya h, Iski pehchaan h kya, Maanlo toh dharkan bhi ek shorr h, Lekin zaroori h wo zindagi ke liye, Maanlo toh ghadi ki tick tick bhi ek shorr h, Lekin zaroori h wo waqt badalne ke ke liye, Par ye shhor kya h, Iski pehchaan h kya, Khamoshi ka todd h Shhor, Jazbaato ki itehaan h Shhor, Har chuppi ki zubaan h Shhor, Har na insaafi ka ye ek pegaam h Shhor...... 😇

Inspirations Like a movie star, . Without autographs People call out your name, Love being different, Because everyone's same Qualities reside in me, Maybe, That is why they say I am an inspiration.. Love being in the limelight, For everyone could see, Me on my wheelchair from Afar. But to me I don't look like an Inspiration. A simple girl living just a simple life, To me I don't look like an inspiration, A stupid young girl who still believe in romance and imagination, But to me I don't like an inspiration, Just why, why being an inspiration is bad, Does people expect more.. isn't that great!? Motivation does come from within when they call you an inspiration.... I think you have to be responsible when they call you inspiration, I think there comes a lot of pressure when they call you inspiration, Sometimes it's just annoying when a stranger calls you an inspiration, It's just the way you see, there's two sides of a coin, It...

  She has been walking though the mountain from quite sometime now. A bag not too large but enough to keep all her belongings safe. Amy was her name in the past but now she was free. She saw a restaurant down the lane and thought to feed her stomach. She sat on the table and the first thing she does was to take out her Diary. The Diary was all she had now that she could call her own, A faithful friend and she began to write. Amy was beautiful and smart but yet she doesn't believed in conventions. “ I had a home in the past, but now I couldn't call it my own.. ” as soon as she wrote these lines a young guy asked her if he could sit with her. She agreed, and the next question that guy asked her was her name, she replied my name is Emma. She wasn't wearing the type of clothes a woman should wear, she had some baggy pants on with a manly t-shirt and her hair completely undone. Emma started telling that guy a story which was new and had a happy family, everything was perfec...

Jab hum neeche dekh ke nhi upar dekh chalne lage, Jab hum bahar na Jaane ke bahane sochne lage, Jab har bache ko dekh dil saham sa jaane lage, Tab samjh lana wo Holi wala time aa gya h, Jab karishma aur bathla me LOC jesa mahool ban jaye, Jab har bache k haath me grenade jese gubbare paaye jaye. Jab sab ko hans hans gulaal lagya jaye. Tab samjh lana wo Holi wala time aa gya h, Jab humaari nazare zameen pr nhi chhat pr jaane lage, Jab haath deke "nhii.. Me Didi hu. nhi... aisa bolna padhe, Bas tab samjh lena ki ye Holi wala time aa gya h, Aaj phir dekho ye Holi wala time aa gya h....😘